I know, I know...I have never really shared much here with you at all. I've been a bad girl. A very bad girl...and I need to write about it more often. Heck I need to just write about it! Maybe I need a spanking first???
Over the past years since I first wrote I have had many amazingly wonderful hotwife experiences. In time I hope to share some of them with you. Hotwife confessions to cum!
Confessions about visits to hotel rooms, a quick blow job for a boyfriend in a parking lot because I just needed to suck a dick, sending pictures to my husband showing my wedding ring against my dates cock, stories of a few different boy toys, even my first strap on experience and a six girl orgy. Now I need an orgy with guys...who's up for that? I'd love to bring home a cream pie to my husband full of a few guys cum. Then if my husbands lucky maybe I'll let him fuck me too as I tell him how much I enjoyed each cock in me...or maybe I'll make him bathe me and clean all that cum off me since I will be so worn out from being fucked by so many cocks in one night. We will see how I feel when I get home to him.
First though I need to clear the air so I can move forward here and share those experiences and maybe help someone who needs encouragement. I went through a rough spell. I had doubt. I felt ashamed. I felt what we were doing was wrong and I let that fester within me for a couple years. I wasted those years. I bottled up my feelings and didn't share them. It built an unknowing wall between us. I was wrong. I should have talked to my husband about how I was feeling.
This whole lifestyle is about trust and honesty. I broke that trust by not being honest about how the stereotypes of what the "lifestyle" is, about being "bi" and liking woman, and about liking fucking other men; were clouding my judgement. I let my fears of what other people might think (even though how on earth would they find out); get in the way of how much closer my husband and I were when I was fucking other men. When we were continually talking about our likes and dislikes, about our deepest desires and most innate fantasies, we were the closest in our relationship. All because of a fear that the infamous "they" would not approve I put my hotwife life on hold. So I beg you, if you are reading this and are not being honest with yourself or your husband, about how you are feeling...PLEASE go speak the truth. Tell him what is bothering you. Tell him your desires. Tell him everything. Speak the truth and get back to fucking, sucking and being shared like any good hotwife should do. As scary as it is to say what you're feeling sometimes, it will be a weight lifted when you do and you will be closer then you ever imagined.
I don't know how often I will write here but as I do hope to actually share some of my experiences with you. For you to enjoy as well as for my husband to read and enjoy and for us to relive these special moments he gives me, together. One thing is for sure, I can't wait for my husband to share me again. To be able to go out and be free to do as much as I want with anyone I want and know that I have his blessing. Heck to know I have him at home cheering me on. It's harder with kids but it can be done so don't give up and more importantly follow your heart. Talk about your doubts, your desires, the good and the bad. I for one am looking forward to being shared; to being the little hotwife once again that my husband deserves.
